Sifting through the foul garbage of my mind,
I caught a glimpse of shimmering light,
I dug deeper and found more still,
I scavenged and I raked overcome by
a desperate mood
suddenly despair hung over me
I start clawing like madness
The more I scraped the deeper it got buried
The deeper I searched,
The more I was emerged in rank,
Swallowed up once again by that glimmer of hope
That was once aptly named You.

I'm still digging myself out...
When will I learn?