Bipolar disorder

There's sunshine today
But I feel clouds.
There's hope in my heart
But my mind sees shrouds.
There's energy in my limbs
But I feel so much pain.
There's momentum in my soul
But I can't gain.

There are two kids
Who need me.
Some days
I can't even be mommy.
There's a lover at the door
Who says he will fight for me
But a future together
We can't always see.

Try and try,
Together we fight.
Try and try again
With all our might.
Together we fail
Together we fall
But again we try
To give it our all.

Bipolar steals my days
But I can't let it win.
Some days I have no choice
But just let it in.
One day I'll conquer
One day at a time.
I do what it takes
To keep me alive.

Every day I tell myself;
A future for my family
I pray to the heavens
To just let it be.