i must have been drinking concrete, swallowing gasoline, eating ashes and chewing dust if i thought this was going to be easy
i've been holding my breath and stopping my thoughts, sleeping for far too long, this house pulling around me until i thought it could hold me forever
something in my skin has died, there is a graying underneath my eyes and i'm still afraid of what's to come this fear is breathing, bulging beneath a layer of my skin
i can feel my heart hiccup at the thought of leaving all of this behind
call it survival, call it the freedom of will; where breath is our own, our compass needle standing still --