I know it's not too late but sometimes I pray things went right went accordingly. It feels awfu being the oldest it *****; you set examples and no one follows amounted to anything. You set trends and criticized now everyone turning a blind eye and doing it. I don't drink but when I did I drank like a fish it was fun. Then everyone joined the party and ruined it for me. I drank for fun while others drank because work ***** or going through a tough time.
As I get older I question my place and where I belong. Learn things and get bored seeking answers found closure so many people frustrate me.