I’ll miss you, I already do.
The little things we do,
the big ones too.

I’ve missed you since January,
since the stars hit the water
and we spent hours by the boats,
I wanted to get close to you
but I’ve been scared.

I’ve missed you the nights spent alone,
thinking thinking,
i’ll see you soon —
and i can’t shake it,
we’ll both be someone else —
I’ll go to bed and it will never be the same.

I’ve missed you in my dreams,
dreary paintings rolling across my eyes,
of us two, too
hitting, scratching, tickling —
you’re a ***
I know.

I’ve missed you since Monterey,
why did we do that,
I turned a place into a feeling,
and driving by will be
crushing rocks,
knives, pierced and pierced,
you won’t come back.

We won’t come back,
we never were,
I’ll be a memory, a faded smell
You’ll recognize in
someone else.

But i’ll miss you,
and maybe it’s not as hard for you,
my heart has slowly been breaking in two.