I felt the darkness move in from above in ominous grey opaque
it reached for me half asleep, I acquiesced
relinquished pillowy clutch splayed sheets like legs
for his chatter bones to chill where my sallow is tissue thin
his hail knuckles affixed to wet tongue drug me to the floor raking my hollows over and over
reeling terrors on sepia filmstrip some scenes repeating some to-fro rewound forward some hovered gory ending:
frigid tools cutting to expose my insides stirring entrail with bone tugging ruddy strings to see what sounds they made as I buckled; choked on my leaks
I closed my eyes tried to escape body but he projected on my shuttered darting
knotting esophagus around the backbone fingerpainting my end on worn flesh walls in char-red spectrum choreographed in perfect harmony with rote fear chanting
this is how you die -
alone
I felt it all happening.
dangling my happy memoirs with nooses ungraceful reanimating decayed draggy dancing Xs where bright eyes were once upon and wide
open
every ache and smothered secret chirped by dark faeries too quick to swat
but when all the pushed down were given mallets they crescendoed into discordant jarring and in its peak came a piercing shriek:
so loud -
all stilled to look around
I couldn’t tell if the voice was him or me
but after terror climaxed the hear ripped and grip released
I allowed myself to loosen, breathe headthrob slowly melded into felt beats:
limbs and tips all pulsing relief
and I could see no one was there
but me.
wielding expertly book in my own hand thick with tested maps
to exquisitely torture every tenuous strand in my fragility