I watched you lying there blinking and moving slowly— like someone only just stirring from a pleasant dream you looked at me, peaceful as always I asked (who? I do not know; but I asked,) “She’s really dead, isn’t she?” the devastation ringing clearly in my words, yet there was a calmness surrounding it all perhaps disconnected, but at least my voice stayed steady. I walked to you and embraced you. you squeezed me back your arms were cold a natural cold, not the cold I felt on that day. we just sat there. still hugging. stretching the moment as long as the universe would allow us as I squeezed you closer, you let out a small burp it was so you, I couldn’t help but smile the small sound left an aching that echoed through my entire being I held you close and spoke softly, but with an unfamiliar intensity into your ear, “I love you so much, Allie.” and with that I released you I felt you fade away slipping out of my grasp and at that moment, I awoke with tears quietly streaming down my face at the realization that I will never again be able to touch you, or see your smiling face without the help of my weak, imperfect memory because you are gone from me, gone from everything.