than the one you loved.
than the liar
than the fool
than the unfaithful
than the bored
than the lonely
than the desperate
than the selfish
than the leech
than the cowardly
than the lifeless
than the confused
than all of them.

"you deserve so much better"
isn't that what you said?

funny how it feels as though
maybe I've heard that somewhere before...

They only want
Me to entertain
Them.
Like the tiger prowling
In the zoo
That makes you
Feel a little guilty
For smiling at his
Misery.
And the cameras
Flash away
And the kids scream
And cry.
I am the the tiger
Complete with
Broken spirit
And hollow eyes.
But the crowds
Will always come…
And someone must
Entertain them.
It is the way of the world.

And it's nights like tonight
while i sit in the dark
alone at last
and the weight of life
of sin
and death
and pain
of losing one's mind
all press down upon
my shoulders
at once.
And there the vultures
wait for me to bleed.

sometimes
if i close my eyes
and try real hard
i can still feel
your warmth
on my lips
and smell the
sweetness
of your breath.
it creeps like poison
down my throat
until my heart
beats no more.
i know that
never again
will i kiss you
goodbye
my love.

It’s hard to admit that
sometimes it doesn’t mean anything
that everyone you care about is selfish
and you don’t really know them at all.
It’s hard to admit that
time passes and you can’t feel
to know that life is slipping away
and you couldn’t care less.
It’s hard to admit that
it was all for nothing
the heartbreak and tears
they’ll just **** someone else.
It’s hard to admit that
you have no control
and that death waits for no one
not even the ones you like.
It’s hard to admit that
for some people
there is no happy ending.
And there’s nothing to be done
but hope the next beer
will put you out of your misery
for tonight.

You were
once nothing
and nowhere
to me.
Eventually
life will
make it that
way again.
It can
never last,
because if it did,
what would
I write about?
Nobody wants
to read
about how
in love you are.
They want you
on your knees.
They want
you begging
for mercy.

******* vampires.

"**** dresses,
I'm a tomboy!"
as she rubs blush
on her cheek bones.
Covering up the
insecurities
from the boy
last week.