Here we are
At one of your family gatherings
I caught a glimpse of you
Sitting across the way
And immediately turned away
Hoping we didn't meet eyes
I could feel my heart
Trying to slash its way through the lungs and bash through my ribs
Wanting out of my chest
Who would've thought in a million years
I'd see you here
Out of all the places
A random gathering of people
All ken to you
Trying to stay calm
But now I'm nervous
Legs shaking
Head aching
Over thinking
Hope that nobody knew
If they found out I'd be shunned
And hung by my own shame
I haven't talked to god in awhile
But I needed a miracle
Please please don't let attention be drawn to me
Or for anyone call out my name
Like they usually do
If they did I wouldn't know what to do
I was desperately trying to hold on to this secret
Kept by me and you
That last night I slept with you