A sleepless night. From a sleepless day. 70 and sunny. A weird day where I felt so torn. My mind giving my body scorn. A day I felt defeated. Laying here my mind a drift. Thinking. Wandering "could this be it?" Could this be me for the rest of time. Living a life that's pure sublime. A life where I feel defeated. My mind is belting at an all time high. I know that I'm an alright guy? So why on this warm summers eve. Had my body given up on me. Parts of me had split tonight. My mind and body torn. I knew it's bad. Ik it's wrong. But I did it, of course. Now I know I am defeated. Looking right and seeing there. A woman that is not mine. Knowing deep down in my heart that this really isn't fine. No part of me thinks this is right. But I kept ******* just the same. I couldn't stop. I wouldn't stop. My body said keep going. And now I begin to shed a tear because my heart feels like exploding. Laying in this bed not mine. With a defeated heart. Knowing deep down in my mind I've tore my life apart.