It's not that I don't want to be friendly,
nor I don't want to be with anyone.
It's despite, how I try,
I can't be that friendly.
I feel embarrased, ashamed of what I am doing,
Why can't I trust people around me?
I asked myself but I didn't get the answer.
Maybe it's the way my parents raised me.
How they made me feel that I should not trust  anyone.
Or maybe it's the people around me.
Their eyes-- that has so many judgements,
Their mouth-- that keeps on talking.
Each and everyone of us does lie,
So how can I trust at least one?
I tend to avoid everyone,
Ignore them--
Afraid that they may not like me,
Even how hard I try I can't give my trust to anyone.
But not this time,
Now that I have the guts to pull myself up.
To give it a try,
Why not?
I want to have a friend,
At least one.
I'll give it a try,
Can you be my friend?
Can I give it a shot?
I tried so hard,
So hard that I don't know how many sighs did I make,
To face you and the people around me.
Can I trust you?
I can lose--
but still, I did try.
At least I tried,
I tried talking to you.
Asking you to be my friend,
A trusted one.
My companion, my shoulder to lean on,
And as I live in this world.
I'll trust you,
But can I have at least one favor?
Just this one,
Can you not break my trust?
Don't let me put up a wall,
Once again, don't let me put up my wall.
Don't....