Despite loosing my heart
My chest feels heavy
I drag this burden around
as I search, in hopes to find a beat

I  listen for it in bars
And try to feel it in others  
always faking it as I go along  
Im fearful they see that my smile is an old souvenir
or find out my laughter are fireworks,
but during the day

I’m hopeful waiting for that heartbeat
,but there’s only an echo or murmur
it rumbles as hope turns to dread
While a shallow numbness fills the spaces

My chest feels heavy, who knew an absence could weigh so much.