I claim to have changed since meeting you

In some ways, I think it's really good.
I have the courage to be myself again.
I haven't felt that way since I was 5 years old.
I think it's kinda beautiful.

But in other ways, it's also pretty bad.
I can't have you, so I take what I can from others to fill that up.
It's a little selfish, and I think I might be hurting people.
I think it's sort of gnarled.

We have a fascinating way of talking about everything else
Except for the reason
We talk about everything.
We have a fascinating way of talking
About anything except
What's on both of our minds.

And I'm starting wonder how much if it is
Good,
And how much of it is
Bad.