less than i should, i keep these foamy fog-soaked memories on hold- pleading with the gods "no yelling, not tonight" and the rain relents
i feel a little safer with just a few clouds the stability is warm unlike my hands, and the majority of my heart but i'm still here- right?
or am i just pretending, sometimes i do bleed just to check if i am still alive. sometimes i don't want to breathe- that's okay too; i'm on my journey i'll find my way