In the end I only have a few excerpts— beer soaked wisdom, harsh, morning-light realities:
I don't love effortlessly. I don't reach for anything out of my grasp. My hands are always searching trying to touch soil beneath sidewalks. Aspirations of affection like dandelions— vibrancy in a concrete wasteland. My knuckles will bleed, my palms will bear callouses of futility.
You were the first effortless thing. If I had a moment I could relive, I couldn't. I strive to recall a moment untainted.
Fall victim to my words. Feel concrete turn to sand; lay in the remains with me.