I've started.
Help me before I quickly
adapt to this.
You must do it fast, ASAP.
Once I'm on,
il be hooked on.
It always happens ..
I can't do one.
I need to do 2 Then fein for all.
I hate it. It takes away all the misery, my heart feels painless.
Which is why I crave this.
To feel numb and not mind.
Be in my worst, lost in lines.
I still feel my emotions, But they are slowly disappearing.
When I high I can't feel the sadness but I can still think it.
I cry but my body won't let me which makes me horrified.
To see that this Drug prisons the real me and Releases a lifeless me.
It's ok
I'm beginning to like it.
It sadness me that I'm back on my old ways
. They assum I prefer drugs.
They Believe I like being this ****** Addict?
NO! I wish to be Sober and happy. Feel Reality and enjoy every breeze.
When I'm high I'm nobody.
I live in a fantasy of no emotions.
I'm hooked on Not feeling rather than dwelling on past memories.
This isn't what I want .
This is not the life I'd like to live.
I'm only using to Forget All my thoughts and Depression.