Like a whirlwind of color
Hit rewind a thousand times
Transported back into the realm of
The beginning.

High tops and whiskey whiskers
Floating around the city
Like I had nothing but
The need to hit the pavement.

I got caught up in you so quick
It was from the moment that you
Hit the dance floor
I reached for your hat
And was told
Its a part of the act.

Polaroid pictures
Chugged beers and lip synced nights
Where I tried to join the crowd
Sat up against walls
And nodded to the newness
The lack of expectation
And thought I found a spot
I found a spot so quickly.

It all swam by so fast
Capturing it all on the flickers of light
Coming from our cellphones
Do you ever think
Of the nights you would call
And talk to me all the time
It couldn't quite translate over?

I saw on Instagram
How happy you looked
With another long blonde haired woman.

I kicked up that pavement
Only to fall into it face first
And for so long
Convinced myself
I needed just one solid moment
Of feeling good
And a part of me
Would do it all again.

I've moved and moved
A time or 4
Since the night we sat on the floor
And you held my face in your hands
Or pinned me down on the bed
With a summer fleeting
New girl
In West Avondale desire.

I looked at pictures of you
And saw the difference
You never tried to deny what we were
But then again
They never do.

Marks on your back
And on mine too
We couldn't keep up
And we made each other angry,
Lost
I'll never forget
The tears that welled up inside of me
When you said

"I ****** up."

And I think thats why
I turned my head on the beach
I saw you gaze at me from afar
Seeing you see
I've become someone else
An evolved version of the girl you loved
We were never able
To get along again.

It took me a while
To recover
From the cult like love
And through our sunglasses we hid
Our anger, our hurt
And the desire
To allow a greeting.

I could feel you wanting to say hello
But we kept our distance
Because the rest all fell away
Rumbled into the darkness
Of the beginning.