It has been harder To write these last few days Because I feel as if I have nothing super new To say And all I want to write about Is you And how I had to leave Again.
It is morning Light piano in the background Drinking coffee And sometimes I think of all the things you taught me.
It is a wonder just how You looked at me when you returned Eating some of your kale chips Like I had never really left your side But it was the more recently updated Version of me You thought you wanted.
That fact has been Swirling within And without me Since I walked out of your apartment 4 days ago.
Today when I woke up The weight felt less heavy Like I really might be moving forward And I felt a moment When I got out of the car Into the night Where I thought "My life just like this. Growing. Youthful. It is great."
It is truly strange And will probably never not be strange That I once again Have looked a man full of love for me In the face And said No