and i guess that's all it took. one pull of the trigger and everything went dark. stop thinking. stop thinking. stop. thinking. You
come flooding the gates of my thoughts and i instantly push you down as if you don't fill any space at all.
i search for the melancholy only to realize it's been buried inside of me all along. stop thinking. i see your eyes. stop thinking. i feel your arm on my waist but you're miles away with another girl that looks to much like me. why the **** am i still thinking. turn it off. turn it off. turn off. and with the blink of an eye i am back to nothing. feeling nothing. saying nothing. thinking everything.
finally you're shoved so far inside of me that i don't think i will ever find you again. stop thinking. i hear your voice in my head. stop feeling. "i love you chloe." "stop hurting me like i don't mean a thing to you!" i scream. but you won't ever hear me and with that, trigger pulled. darkness. oh the beautiful tragedy of teaching yourself to just simply exist.