I found myself here
My body aches
From the shots and late night
Kisses and gropes.

We toasted our glasses
As you watched me with adoration
Effection
And I know we both want to think
That there could be something to be had here
But there just isn't.

I guess it all makes a lot of sense
I cried into FaceTime to my best friend
All the way home.

"I will do whatever it takes"

You said while lying on your back
Naked with me
And it was then I had to say the one thing
That I know to be the core of the truth
And I will be replaying
The hurt and anger
The betrayal in your eyes
For a long time.

From up above
I watched you lick and caress me
Flecks of silver in your dark wavy hair
I will always remember and love
The way you talked to me
And groaned
As you gave your body away to me.

It is Tuesday
I know you are still working from home
I am too.

I'm sorry
I will never not be sorry

Buts just not you
That is meant for me.