Sep 2017
It's almost been a year since I've had you by my side.
In this time I've yet to find someone who has made my heart race like you once did.
Is it bad to say that some nights while I'm asleep your face appears on the back of my eye lids?
I've came so close to giving you so many ******* calls. But your boyfriend is crazy
We know that wouldn't get far.
I don't think that you understand in the slightest what you actually meant to me. You were everything and that is something I truly mean.
It took me 6 years and a break up to truly believe that ****. And am I kicking the younger me for being so belligerent, of course. He scared you away.
Back then I didn't understand what my actions could do. But now I see life in a whole other hue.
I looked at you and everything was red.
Passion burning
your hand on my head.
My hand on your heart.
You laying under me.
Where do I start?
But now look at us.
We are entire nations apart. I remember how many times my family that didn't immediately know asked me where you were after we decided to go in opposite paths.
And I had to tell them that it wasn't meant to last.
But I'm standing here today.
To look up at the sky and pray. That maybe one day you will realize everything that was taken away when you said that I wasn't meant to stay. My happiness, my heart, my entire world tore apart.
You left me there stranded like a cast away.
But I didn't even have a Wilson to help me get through half my days.
I just had the rain. And not even the rain from the skies was enough. My eyes decided they wanted to join in on the fun.
So as I sat there for months with the skies taunting me and my eyes darting around cautiously looking for your face in crowded rooms near where you stayed.
It tore me into pieces that day. I've never cried that much.
Holding you sitting on a toilet seat. There's no reason for that image to be one of our last memories.
But everything happens for a reason.
Even though you said you were so loyal to me I consider this an act of treason.
So I will leave it there and let it go. But I swear if one day you come around you're going to have me saying
AO...
In this time I've yet to find someone who has made my heart race like you once did.
Is it bad to say that some nights while I'm asleep your face appears on the back of my eye lids?
I've came so close to giving you so many ******* calls. But your boyfriend is crazy
We know that wouldn't get far.
I don't think that you understand in the slightest what you actually meant to me. You were everything and that is something I truly mean.
It took me 6 years and a break up to truly believe that ****. And am I kicking the younger me for being so belligerent, of course. He scared you away.
Back then I didn't understand what my actions could do. But now I see life in a whole other hue.
I looked at you and everything was red.
Passion burning
your hand on my head.
My hand on your heart.
You laying under me.
Where do I start?
But now look at us.
We are entire nations apart. I remember how many times my family that didn't immediately know asked me where you were after we decided to go in opposite paths.
And I had to tell them that it wasn't meant to last.
But I'm standing here today.
To look up at the sky and pray. That maybe one day you will realize everything that was taken away when you said that I wasn't meant to stay. My happiness, my heart, my entire world tore apart.
You left me there stranded like a cast away.
But I didn't even have a Wilson to help me get through half my days.
I just had the rain. And not even the rain from the skies was enough. My eyes decided they wanted to join in on the fun.
So as I sat there for months with the skies taunting me and my eyes darting around cautiously looking for your face in crowded rooms near where you stayed.
It tore me into pieces that day. I've never cried that much.
Holding you sitting on a toilet seat. There's no reason for that image to be one of our last memories.
But everything happens for a reason.
Even though you said you were so loyal to me I consider this an act of treason.
So I will leave it there and let it go. But I swear if one day you come around you're going to have me saying
AO...
