I realized
Within his presence
That I have this guttural urge
To be mean to men
To write them off and not really listen
And I acknowledged that feeling inside myself
And said no, please lets not.

And I didn't go there
Though I felt the urge
And this morning I ponder why that it is.

Its because many men have abused me
And thats' how I deal and cope
With that feeling
Like I could beat them to it
And pad myself up with
A harsh protection.