There's a void within,
Festering,
Living off of me.
Loneliness approaches,
Lies and engulfs me.
I claw out for air,
Yet he resumes to wrap his arms around me,
His rough hands caressing me.
I wish he was softer, kinder, gentler.
Loneliness haunts my dreams.
He reminds me of everyone who has ever abandoned me.
He ties a rope around my neck and tempts me.
He makes me aware,
Of the soul I couldn't keep,
Alive.
He plays the crash like a record,
Stuck on repeat.
I'm laying in bed,
Pleading for him to ease the pain growing inside of me.
He numbs me.
He kisses my skin;
My forehead, neck, collarbones, chest.
He loses himself in me,
Yet I am reminded of everything I hate.
I am left wide awake.
He doses off,
He finally sleeps.

Loneliness...
I beg you to leave.
Leave me with some of my dignity,
It's the least I can keep.