With anticipation in the air and my body shaking, i waited for what felt like an eternity.
As you finally appeared through the darkness,
i was speechless.
My eyes took in your entire being, whilst i couldn't help but feel as if i was among a stranger.
You embraced me with love and an overwhelming feeling that brought a hesitancy i vaguely remember upon first knowing you.
You were different, or maybe I,
and I wasn't sure how to feel about it.
You welcomed me in and I followed, slowly re-entering a life so blurry to me now, and things began to click again.

As the day went on, you brought such kindness and love to make me feel at home.
I felt as though I was living in the dreams that consumed my mind all the nights we were apart.
But with all the good that came, the parts i blocked from my memory soon took its turn.
Content with life and ready for a good time, you embraced the company of friends that awaited you,
with only my presence serving as a divider.
You looked at me with anticipation, making me feel as if cutting this reunion short was my only option before a nightmare i learned to hate so much began, and i was stuck.
I gravitated to the door as the smiles in the room repelled me, and you walked me out.
You seemed rushed, with a sort of sadness in your eyes i could not identify, as you hugged me goodbye and quickly went inside,
Leaving me more alone then i was that morning.