the girls in the back of the local pathetic laundrymat (where nothing, none of my things, comes out clean) speak ugly slavic. their loads must be light as they're only half dressed. I put my clothes, all I own, except the one's on my back, in five dryers and go sit on the paint-peeled two-tone maroon bench in front. today's heat is indefinite, and I wonder if someone has stolen my soap and basket yet. this is downtown, the turf occupied mostly by addicts and foreigners and the rich, the richer than me, meander lazily in and out of bars and salons. the beautiful plump brown skin girl I've been falling in Love with has straddled her bike and left. she didn't even see me smile at her. now there's the asian man stereotype, smoking incessantly like me. who spends most of his time daydreaming of some other life. his thousand yard stare sees nothing and I'm hungry, but I won't eat the restaurants are all white owned and nothing is good or cheap. there's garbage everywhere and no one seems to mind. when my pencil stops moving, terrible writer's fear I'll never have another thought worth writing or bought. time to fold up and maybe scrape that marines sticker off the back of my truck.