I don't expect anything from anyone but I've also never been in the situation I'm in rn. All the people I thought where my friends just don't come over anymore n so having no one to talk to is hell. I know I can do what has to be done  and I know that I'm the only one that can do it but I can't talk to myself about my issues tho. I mean I have people that obviously care n would do anything for me if I needed; I just don't have my best friend anymore and when he died the other people I thought where my friends disappeared and I'm left alone in my mind with myself and sometimes I'm scary.