is this what love is like,
to feel: pained, crushed,
bruised, beaten, broken,
torn apart, ripped to shreds.

im not sure how much more
my exasperated heart can
bear.

is this how its going to be.
to be: let down, used, looked
over, disregarded, invisible,
kicked, skipped over, unloved.

im through with this now. even
as i say it i know its a lie.
and a hole ill get ****** right back into.

all of me aches..
my heart no longer feels.
for now im crawling to the
next mirage of love only to find
it nonexistent.