I wonder why He made all these things happen. I wonder why He even let us meet at one point in our lives. I wonder why He made us feel what we felt before we decided to feel nothing at all. I wonder why He led us towards each other when we weren't even looking at our way, then all of a sudden, He pulled him back in and made me alone again. I did not understand a thing. I did not see any sign. I did not like the sound of my tears. I did not like the way we said good bye.
I kept on asking why.
I kept on singing our old songs.
I kept on browsing through our old photos.
I kept on wondering why He made me cry for you so.
I kept on breaking my heart.
I kept on standing on a dry, cracked ground.
I kept on saying that I wouldn't mind,
but after all this time, all I realized...
If it matters more than anything else, it could've made sense now.
And that hit me deep inside.
Because even when I say that we all heal in time,
I knew I still can't love anyone, when my heart has long died.