I used to get high to get over you, drinking just to **** the pain
Crying my nights away, my tears became the rain
Smiling on the outside but falling apart on the inside
Laughing like I’m okay but the obvious I couldn’t hide
I hated the thought of you but always ran back to it
Holding on to what was no more making myself look stupid
How could one person make me feel this empty again?
Gave her everything in me & still it was a battle I couldn’t win
Wanted to fix things but you made it obvious that it was too late
Thoughts of you every day, heavy tears on display
Tearing myself apart & desperately trying to end my days
I needed you to show me something but didn’t
So I chose to drink to **** your memories & say good riddance
Haven’t been that depressed since 2009 & feared this deja vu
Felt so attached to someone whose love seemed so true
Wanted to be more than your King & more than your dream come true
More than a fantasy & more than someone who means the world to you
Taking away the love of my life caused me to lose control
Falling off track & allowing the poison to please my soul
So much hate towards you trying to destroy any memory of you
Just allowing the hell within to **** the very thought of you