I am every bit of my sadness

I am every drop of my tears

I am what I said I was yesterday

I haven't changed much through the years

And I tried to be something much better

But much better was too hard to be

So I guess that I've failed you immensely

But there's one thing I want you to see

I've been wearing this mask for a while now

My makeup is starting to flake

I've awaited my chance for some time now

I don't know how much more I can take

My dearest you don't understand how

The sunshine can stay out for days

Then suddenly downpours take over

And I fall into all my old ways

But my comfort has never been sunshine

And my downfall has never been rain

And somehow I feel both of them sometimes

My thunderclouds mix with my flame

And you try to talk me out of feeling

But there's some things you just can't erase

I have worn out my welcome in numbness

So I'm going to cut right to the chase

That I guess what I'm saying is, sometimes

I don't need any miracle drugs

I am laying in bed and I'm thinking

What I really could use is a hug