i remember sitting at a table across from you and
listening to words flow from your mouth and
watching your eyes light up
as you talked about your favorite things and
how your lips would curve into a smile but
all i could think of was what it would be like in that moment
to press my own against them

one night i was standing next to you
watching the fireworks on the fourth of july and
you said you wished you could dance
as the lights seemed to do against the night sky but
all i that flashed upon my mind in that instance
was how i wanted to give you that experience

one night i was sitting next to you
against the backdrop of the flickering television static
and you said to me as tears started to form in your eyes
how you were afraid you would never be loved
and you would never find security in someone else's arms but
all my energy was directed in that moment
to stopping my arms from shaking
as i desperately wanted to put them around you.