But that's my little cousins name and it's kind of weird for you pretend it's mine.
Or maybe that's just what my mind wants to remember.
But i can still see the leaves shadows on the notebook paper and I think I wanted it to be a secret, wait for you to read it. I hunched over and stuck my tongue slightly out in concentration after you told me it had to be about me and not you. And I think I saw you watching me write it. *your elbows on the table, hat tipped back and hands around your mouth, you were watching me write. and now this is for you. This is for the boy that I hurt and the potential that I ruined. This is for the boy that I love and will always need without ever receiving. This is for you. This will always be for you.