And I could go have fun too but im weighed down with my lifes burdens and my familys too and I don't have any clue what to do because I've never felt so alone and all I have is just...this and it's just a phantom feeling because you're gone and you're living life and im down here, frozen like i never crossed your mind and maybe that's fair and i just want to dig deep so i can not only remember how you wiped my face with your thumb but the way your skin felt on my face because that's what i need right now and it's never gonna be what i feel again