I want to love
like I once felt love
              But something
stops me
in my
tracks.  
Is it
       pride
fear
uncertainty
         wisdom
Am I just too wise to let myself
            fall
and
          plummet
like a train
                            derailed
                               coming off course
Know too much now
I can love
but not like before
My heart beats steady
              without the applause
Am I too scared to set off from the station
                               Standing      
too far back          
                 from loco
motives
           moving
doors