even though you were bad for me, i couldn't help it. you were the cigarette between my teeth. the alcohol that burnt my throat. the gamer that played my heart. and the snake that tempted my hunger. but, you were also the rainbow after my storm. the moonlight during my night. my angel in heaven. and my pill when i was in pain. you were my one addiction. and then, you were gone. even though it was good for me, it also brought me down. and i found myself whispering your name over and over again like a prayer that would be heard by a god i knew was there somewhere. and like my favorite song that i'd sang all day and all night a million times but i'd somehow forgotten the lyrics of. and it drove me up the wall until I was deemed nothing but crazy. and they'd dismissed you as a mere figment of my imagination you as someone and our love as something i'd made up. i was to be alone for once. and as i sat thinking in the darkness of midnight, i knew, i missed you, i loved you, i loved you, i missed you. and i still miss you. and i still love you.