Please consult yourself before starting this or any new relationship by passing fear off as love and pretending it is real.
Studies have shown that the hard honest work of falling in love with the beauty of the real you will lead to a lack of willingness to subject yourself to suffering.
Ask your doctor about LoveThySelf and whether it's right for you.
LoveThySelf- The soul you save will most certainly be your own (for it's the only one you can)