I asked God to help me end my pain by me dying and he whispered in my ear that he wants me to suffer until I take my own life. He told me I'll suffer from my ancestors crimes even though I have nothing to do with it. I begged God to give me the strenght that I've been lacking to end it and he whispered in my ear that he will
In my other ear Satan whispered God never loved me
I'm trash that God is ready to empty
I begged God for a loaded gun and some rope to end what I'm forcing myself to do...( live)