I was never a child who got too startled It was not the imaginary monsters or darkest corners that kept me up It was always the words Wordsย ย that paralyzed me, pinned back my ears
I was never a child who got too sick I did not catch the common flu commonlyย ย Nor did I shake with sweat on a bone-chilling night It was always the words Words that scraped my stomach raw, ate me inside out
I was never a child who got too smart I did not talk with naively perceived accuracy It was not the punishment I received from being a smart-aleck that refrained me It was always the words Words that controlled my inner speech, meticulously measuring what squeaked out
I was never a child who got too close I did not trust, for I did not know, for I did not try I was barricaded by the words It was always the words that paralyzed me, scraped me raw, controlled me I was forced to listen, but never to ask, never to protest, never to question I was restrained by the words, obstructed by them I let them hurt, I let them deplete me, I let them be me
And they have been me, and they are me I have consumed them, time and time again I let them take over, till there was no more me and only the words It was always the words Now it is just *the words