I'm not fine.
I'm not okay.
I'm not even mediocre.
I'm bad.
I feel bad.
I feel like I'm spiraling into nothing
I feel like I lost a part of me
I feel like I should be better than I am
But I'm not.
I feel not fine.
I keep saying I'm fine
Maybe for others, maybe for myself
But I'm not.
I'm not fine.