heartbeats and lavender baths
for a moment i felt in ecstasy
the world stopped only for me
and i closed my eyes, to feel nothing but peace.

for a long few moments
i felt no anxiety
i felt safe in the sound of a strangers heartbeat
and the smell of lavender bubble bath

so now tell me
why i sit on the edge of my bed
shaking violently,
silently
wishing for my heartbeat and lavender bath.