I figured sleep will be a tolerable darkness,
But deep sleep eludes me.
I'm conscious of my thoughts,
As I lay "asleep".
I've been playing jigsaw of my life,
With the wrong pieces.
And then wondered why I felt incomplete.
I'm in a really dark, bad place.
Something like Insidious but darker.
I really don't wanna be me right now.
So excuse me, if I'm not me right now.
I welcomed darkness like an old friend.
But I never knew a friend could be so cold.
I closed my heart so I can't feel.
But I never knew void is pitch ******* black.