I realized I had been chasing a fantasy my entire life;
that what I had wanted more than anything, was not real.

Immediately,

shock subsided as the intense sensations of stomach movements prevailed...

What kind of world is this?

What kind of place are we living in,
where { we can imagine what is perfect to us,
but never obtain it } ?

I am broken from defeat.
I am ready for the next world.