you were a laughing constant
that always smiled at my jokes and
fell for my fake stories
that I told just to make you laugh
you should've known then
that I will lie to you
if it means making you smile
if it means hiding who I really am

I saw you in the corner of an empty room
that was crowded with my thoughts
clouded with drugs
I saw you
barely knew you
but still told you
cause I knew to take it as a sign
that you're here for
me too

I'm sorry that we broke each other
and that we waltz in and out of our lives
waiting for me to be ready
or else you to be ready
I can't be sure
not sure if we'll ever be ready
just always right
I didn't want to hurt you
and I'm sorry I did
when I ran away to hide
and protect you from me
I mean protect me from you
cause you hold me to who I am
and pull me out from hiding
but its hard to keep hiding from you
don't want to stay away from you
but I'm afraid I've done too much damage