surprised by my thoughts and stunned by my deeds
no i didn't really thought i had it in me
after things said and done i find myself here
so familiar these path i already crossed and been
i remember being baffled in trance-like state
i fear i might be waiting to be struck by ominous sky
then and only then i shall realize that i had crossed that gate
my sour mind knows no meaningful direction
my heart feels no thread of hope

no i didn't really thought i had it in me
if knowing oneself make a wise person
i hope i am little wiser now then i was yesterday
so i know i am not entirely brave or honest
i am coward and selfish to the point of blunder flaws
when i am not being all of that, i am thankful for reaching so far.