father runs the comb slow through ***** hair a dream in wide tooth picks / throwing one in that afro for effect / everyone always wanted to look like questlove.
father runs his hands on the back a dream in crying fits / throwing out “it’s okay’s” and / “you’ll be fine’s.” all until you were sixteen and tired. so tired of being alive and you told him in this stern steel and he broke into anger threw his hands on your arms and shook you. don’t you know i need you alive, boy!
father places his hand on your shoulder when you are overdosed and dying, shaking you again telling you wake up as he drives inexplicably fast down the highway. father is one six shooter away from doing what you’ve done.
father is crying alone at night. mother doesn’t come by anymore. his lovers all left. his daughter in the hospital. an arctic frigidity of things sliding quickly out of mortal control; don’t you know we’re all ******?
father is eating oatmeal in the hospital. sitting next to you in this inexplicable unbreakable silence where your insanity is a six shooter and his hand is on yours / letting you know at anytime, i could shoot.
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