Still can't sleep at night
Something keeps me going
Lingered in the moments
Traced back in my thoughts

I can taste it with my fingers
But the reason why escapes me
Slips away so slowly
But somehow focus only

On how lonely
I've been allowed to become
Obsessed with
The last vestige

Of the happiest I have ever been.

So knowing how long it takes
Calculating all the stakes
Letting myself escalate
As I dream of running

Never wanting to wake up.