i used to feel so alienated and not be able to express myself at all then i started taking meds and i can't stop I'm pouring my heart out into my work soon there will no blood left for my heart to pump i write about my pain and suffering letting the blood pool around the bullet wound in my head too much is gone, to little is left to hold i feel like i won't have much longer in this palace with old gothic architecture and a sad gloomy storm will the sunny days soon come?