I had a tough therapy session, can you listen? She said, "Talia, you can't live in the psych ward." But what am i supposed to do when every time i drive my car i have to pull over because i can't see anything but car accidents? I'd never cried in front of my psychologist until she said that suicidal thoughts might be something i have to live with. She said, this is bpd. I said thank you. She said that if i continue to purge at the rate i am going my heart will stop before i turn 18. I couldn't help but think that i hope it does.