To fill the mouth with thousands of seas only to be met with more thirst. To have the world fall onto your brain, filled with knowledge of the unknown. To lay awake reminiscing of all the things you took for granted, while they sleep peacefully. To wobder when being fully dressed before presenting yourself in front of a mirror will no longer be a necessity. To thinking you know so much but knowing so little. To beg like the begger you mistook them for. To be all alone and only wanting them, no one to blame but yourself. To cry out, only met with silent, cold, uncaring. To spend lifetimes wanting something that never wants you.
These are the things you feel much later after getting something you never really had.