May 2017
i see him
yes i do
and i can hear his voice from where i sit
he is right in front of me
but i know he does not see me as i am
but for that all he had was pathetic excuses
using his supposed mental impairment
to explain away the fact that he always
called me a girl
and then he outed me incorrectly as a ******* transvestite
like ****
i see him
yes i do
he has a girl sitting across from him
and he’s talking at her
no not to her
but in that tone of voice that he has
perfected where you feel like a child
being scolded and this must be how matilda felt
and i paraphrase:
“i’m big, you’re small
i’m right, you’re wrong
i’m smart, you’re dumb”
i see him
yes i do
and he is not charming
and he is not attractive
and he is not funny
and he is not nice
and he is not intelligent
and he is not a good person
though he certainly thinks he is
i see him
yes i do
and just the sound of his voice makes me sick
because this man
that acts like a boy
with the way he proudly declares that he
is dedicated and committed to making fun of others
and 18 years old that he is
does not seem to understand why that is
not an okay or funny thing to say
i see him
yes i do
his tone grates on my eardrums
and he makes two of my favorite classes
a thing that curdles anxiety in my guts
because he is so rude and loud and never shuts up
and it hurts my head
it hurts my head
why can’t he just shut up
yes i do
and i can hear his voice from where i sit
he is right in front of me
but i know he does not see me as i am
but for that all he had was pathetic excuses
using his supposed mental impairment
to explain away the fact that he always
called me a girl
and then he outed me incorrectly as a ******* transvestite
like ****
i see him
yes i do
he has a girl sitting across from him
and he’s talking at her
no not to her
but in that tone of voice that he has
perfected where you feel like a child
being scolded and this must be how matilda felt
and i paraphrase:
“i’m big, you’re small
i’m right, you’re wrong
i’m smart, you’re dumb”
i see him
yes i do
and he is not charming
and he is not attractive
and he is not funny
and he is not nice
and he is not intelligent
and he is not a good person
though he certainly thinks he is
i see him
yes i do
and just the sound of his voice makes me sick
because this man
that acts like a boy
with the way he proudly declares that he
is dedicated and committed to making fun of others
and 18 years old that he is
does not seem to understand why that is
not an okay or funny thing to say
i see him
yes i do
his tone grates on my eardrums
and he makes two of my favorite classes
a thing that curdles anxiety in my guts
because he is so rude and loud and never shuts up
and it hurts my head
it hurts my head
why can’t he just shut up
This is about a guy in my Creative Writing, and Psychology classes, that I attempted to befriend last year because he was friends with someone I'd fallen deep into friend-love with. And he was/is literally the worst. He is such a ****, and thinks he knows everything about everything. The last straw, though, was when he outed me as a "transvestite" to one of his furry friends. So, of course that was a really ****** thing to do, and I tried to patiently explain to the guy that I was not a transvestite, that there was a pretty clear difference between being transgender and being a transvestite, but he just wouldn't listen. And then, get this, he came back a week later telling me that he was going to be this character, that's a transgender female, for Halloween. And he literally didn't see what the problem was with that, that he a cisgender male, was going to be an MtF character and treat transgender people like a costume. He also misgendered me all the time and then used his autism as an excuse for it. Like, no. I cannot wait until this year ends and I never have to see him again. jesus christ. Being a transphobe isn't cool, ya'll.
(27/Transgender Male)
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